get out of my head

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i don’t want you here, living inside my head

questioning every decision,

every move I make,

putting useless worry into my mind,

creating chaos that cannot be calmed with relaxation or meditation

you want to destroy me

make me feel as if I cannot get better,  heal,  or live a happy life

 

i want to be lifted up

encouraged,

experience true peace,

 

so find a new place to reside

 

i am kicking you out

for good

 

wendi is the author of two books, you can view them here.

 

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Meditation

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Living with a slew of CIs, I have to put up with a lot of crap from my body.  Through these stressful years I  tried to eat right, exercise as able, rest when needed, and research various ways to help ease my pain.  One of the ways that I discovered over and over in my research was the practice of meditation.  As I continued to read about it’s benefits, I just kind of pushed it aside in my mind.  I have always been one who has prayed regularly and I  figured it would have the same impact on my immediate health…………but oh, I was so very wrong.

When I first began meditating I couldn’t do it for more than 3 minutes……….my body and my mind couldn’t rest for even that short amount of time…………in fact, meditating made me feel more anxious;  well, talk about counter-productive!  So, I continued to read more and more about meditation………..the benefits, the different types, the best times and became determined to continue my quest to be able to meditate once a day for 10 minutes.  I reached this goal by slowly increasing my time in one minute intervals when my body felt “ready.”

My very basic meditation practice consists  of listening to meditation music in a relaxed, sitting position, closing my eyes, taking some slow, deep breaths and letting my mind empty.  Nothing special, nothing complicated…………except I have to keep letting thoughts that want to crowd into my “alone time” go off into space.  But I have done it……….I am now able to meditate for 10 minutes a day and not only enjoy it, but I actually look forward to starting each day this way.

As I continue to meditate daily I have seen my level of anxiety drop and when I do start to feel increased anxiety I am instinctively taking  slow deep breaths.

As time goes on, my goal is to learn more about meditation, extend my time, and learn different techniques to incorporate into my routine.  As for now, I will stick to listening to Meditative Mind free off Youtube and enjoy the healthful benefits.

Until next time…………………YOU are a superhero (this is a huge job, so you may need to find a way to deal with all that stress!)