you

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in your arms i experience true peace

no place do i feel safer, not even in my own mind – which creates chaos and worry

my chest full of rapid beats – you wrap your strong arms around me

your presence………

calms my heart

calms my thoughts

calms my soul……

 

child like

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yes…….childlike wonder i still have in my soul

despite the years i have behind me, i still see the would through the eyes of a child

it may seem silly for one of such age to get so excited by a butterfly, a flower, a happy dog with his head out a window, a poem, a sunset, or a friendly comment

but………my heart still skips a beat when i see small tokens of joy present itself

it is as if God is telling me…….i am here……and……i never left……..

fireflies

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in the darkness of night………they flash with passion

their brilliance shining…….lighting up their little part of the world

others looking on with amazement, joy and splendor

 

I dream of a world where small lights of kindness continually illuminate the darkness

bringing hope and happiness to others

 

10 ways I feel like Albert Einstein while living with chronic illness

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  1.  I can remember where I put my keys the last time I used them
  2.  I can find my purse when I need to leave without help from one of my kids
  3.  I remember that my sunglasses are on the top of my head within two minutes of searching for them.
  4.  I can create a blog entry in less than 3 hours without crying
  5.  I remember to bring my grocery list with me to the store
  6.  I remember I have list with me, and use it at the store
  7.  I can find my phone 75%………ok 50% of the time
  8.  I can summarize what I read in a book from the day before
  9.  I remember an appointment without being reminded by one of my calendars
  10.  I am able to help my kids with algebra

…….as you can read, it really doesn’t take much!

isolation

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Synonym Discussion of isolation

solitudeisolationseclusion mean the state of one who is alone. solitude may imply a condition of being apart from all human beings or of being cut off by wish or circumstances from one’s usual associates.

    • a few quiet hours of solitude

isolation stresses detachment from others often involuntarily.

    • the isolation of the village in winter

seclusion suggests a shutting away or keeping apart from others often connoting deliberate withdrawal from the world or retirement to a quiet life.

    • lived in pastoral seclusion

 

ISOLATION this is such a sad and lonely word, just pushing the sounds across your tongue sounds just……….blah.

ISOLATION is what the prison system uses to further punish those who misbehave while behind bars.  It is meant to break people so they never want to do another bad thing.

Many individuals with chronic illness are living isolated lives.  Isolation leads to even more unwanted side effects or exaggeration of current symptoms such as depression, anxiety, worry, loneliness and pain.

No one wants to feel lonely and too many people are scared to admit they feel alone because, simply put, in today’s world, it equals loser, or worse yet, unlovable.  Obviously this is not true, but those feelings are there none-the-less.

Being chronically ill, we have already lost so much……..previous abilities to do what we loved, stamina, a good night sleep, to interact with our surrounding in a immediate and prompt way……adding loneliness into the mix is a huge slap in the face, fuel to the fire.

This world (at least here in the US) is fixated on the health, youth, independence, wealth, and “beauty” at all costs and people do not take time to slow down and go and visit a friend who is ill, let alone even know who their neighbors are…………so what can we do about this?

…….PLEASE, if you know someone in your neck of the woods who is alone, sick, lonely, can’t get out and interact with the world on a regular basis, please take 1 hour out of  the next 30 days and do something about it.  This simple act of kindness, multiplied by many, sends love where it needs to be, with those who can use it the most.  If you are personally unable to get out of your home, send a card or a letter to someone else who is in a similar situation.  Emails are nice and texts can be great too, but taking the time to send a personal note shows you took an extra step out of your day and thought of them in a very real way.  Now please go……………

Image result for quotes of gandhi to be the change you want to see in the world

 

drums

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the drums are beating…………i hear them from afar and they draw me in.

as i walk i try to hide myself from its pull

the beats, like my heart, give life to all that is around it

i creep closer……….the drum is under the open sky

i search for people………no one is there,

the drum is beating on its own

calling out to those who need to hear it, it draws us in……….

people begin encircling the drum from all directions- walking out of the darkness

searching for their own beating heart