rain

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a late summer storm

the rain pours down from the gray sky………..

drenching the soil surrounding me……

yet I stand in the middle of the storm, untouched

no refreshing rain reaches me,

will I ever feel its refreshing quench?

 

 

isolation

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Synonym Discussion of isolation

solitudeisolationseclusion mean the state of one who is alone. solitude may imply a condition of being apart from all human beings or of being cut off by wish or circumstances from one’s usual associates.

    • a few quiet hours of solitude

isolation stresses detachment from others often involuntarily.

    • the isolation of the village in winter

seclusion suggests a shutting away or keeping apart from others often connoting deliberate withdrawal from the world or retirement to a quiet life.

    • lived in pastoral seclusion

 

ISOLATION this is such a sad and lonely word, just pushing the sounds across your tongue sounds just……….blah.

ISOLATION is what the prison system uses to further punish those who misbehave while behind bars.  It is meant to break people so they never want to do another bad thing.

Many individuals with chronic illness are living isolated lives.  Isolation leads to even more unwanted side effects or exaggeration of current symptoms such as depression, anxiety, worry, loneliness and pain.

No one wants to feel lonely and too many people are scared to admit they feel alone because, simply put, in today’s world, it equals loser, or worse yet, unlovable.  Obviously this is not true, but those feelings are there none-the-less.

Being chronically ill, we have already lost so much……..previous abilities to do what we loved, stamina, a good night sleep, to interact with our surrounding in a immediate and prompt way……adding loneliness into the mix is a huge slap in the face, fuel to the fire.

This world (at least here in the US) is fixated on the health, youth, independence, wealth, and “beauty” at all costs and people do not take time to slow down and go and visit a friend who is ill, let alone even know who their neighbors are…………so what can we do about this?

…….PLEASE, if you know someone in your neck of the woods who is alone, sick, lonely, can’t get out and interact with the world on a regular basis, please take 1 hour out of  the next 30 days and do something about it.  This simple act of kindness, multiplied by many, sends love where it needs to be, with those who can use it the most.  If you are personally unable to get out of your home, send a card or a letter to someone else who is in a similar situation.  Emails are nice and texts can be great too, but taking the time to send a personal note shows you took an extra step out of your day and thought of them in a very real way.  Now please go……………

Image result for quotes of gandhi to be the change you want to see in the world

 

the rose

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fresh and newly picked, beautifully simple, exquisitely delicate

it slowly opens

growing lovelier with layers and layers of petals, showing more of it’s inner beauty, its complexity

in abundant bloom the rose is in it’s glory, filled with beauty, full of life……..showing the world all it has to offer………..

the day comes when the rose begins to droop, petals wither, brown and begin to fall, the stem starts to wilt………beauty fades………and………it begins to die slowly

just like love……….it begins fresh, new, breathtaking ………….but does it have to succumb to decay?

lonely road

 

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no one can truly understand the pain and discomfort of  living

to understand the masks put on every day, to live within the confines of  this society, not to be viewed as worthless, useless, in a culture that wants fast paced living, quick movements, immediate answers, a fountain of youth, boundless energy, radiating health………..

we struggle to even maneuver down this path……….it is twisting, turning sharply with multiple bumps in the road

it’s a lonely road we roam…………..the desperation, the clinging onto hope, the desire to feel normal……………it is astounding thoughts of healing we try to keep alive – pushed to the back of our minds so not to be overwhelmed with the thoughts of what might be.

the road is endless and uncharted.  it is an intimidating place to ramble as the fog covers the path – your view is obscured…………you have no ability to see where you are going.

it’s like taking a trip, to an unknown place without any clue to where you are going or how you are going to get there…………..not a path I would have chosen to take, but one I am on nonetheless.

what if?

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what if there was no sadness?

what if there was no pain?

what if there was no sorrow?

what if there was no illness?

what if there were no struggles?

what if there was no evil?

what if there was no hunger?

 

what would all of that mean?

pain

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in those deep and dark moments of physical and emotional pain you search your soul for strength………….

and in those moments you pray for guidance, for relief – that if there is a lesson to be learned………….to please reveal it in a clear and gentle way………….

maybe it is in these moments when we really learn how strong we are, or maybe it is how weak………..

that we can get through this on our own…………….or that we need others

we are mentally strong enough to tackle it head on……………..or how close we are  completely losing it………….

it is in these moments we realize just how fragile we are………..how we walk a pencil thin line everyday………….between making it and breaking down………….

Sunshine Blogger Award

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I would like to give a HUGE shout out to Amber at  The World Sees Normal  for giving me this nomination.  I am humbled she would think of me.  Please go check out her awesome blog where she touches on several chronic health issues and all the stuff that goes along with it.  And I would like to apologize for taking so long to complete this, I am truly sorry!

HERE’S HOW IT WORKS…

THE RULES

1.) Thank the blogger(s) who nominated you and link back to their blog

2.) Answer the 11 questions the blogger asked you

3.) Nominate 11 new blogs to receive this award, and write them 11 new questions

4.) List the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post and/or on your blog.

 

Questions for me:

1. If you could pick one person in your life to switch places with so they could feel how you feel for the day, who would it be and why!?

My doctors, if you haven’t experienced it, you can’t truly understand it.

 

2. When you have people in your life that just can’t seem to understand you and your illness, what have you found to be the best way to explain it to them, so they understand?

I have to be honest, I have been dealing with this so long that I just don’t even try anymore.  I use to, but it never worked.  Then I would get upset at the person for not understanding and s/he trying to compare my issue with the time he broke his arm in the 6th grade.

 

3. When you have some time just for you, how do you spend that time? Do you enjoy the quiet of being alone or would you rather be with a close friend or family member?

If I am having a good day, I love to walk and think and pray.  Walking is a gift I NEVER take for granted.  I will go off alone but also enjoy the company of my family.

 

4. What is your all time favorite TV show?

I do not watch TV but do watch Netflix,  Amazon Prime and some shows over the internet, so this is a little difficult for me to answer.  But if I had to pick a TV show it would be The Middle.  There have been a few episodes where I swore they were secretly filming my family.

 

5. What is your guilty pleasure?

This one is really easy for me……….I love unsweetened green iced tea from Starbucks.

 

6. What is the most UNBELIEVABLE thing that someone in the medical profession has said to you? And what was your response?

A neurologist told me that maybe I just needed to purchase different under clothing to relieve my symptoms………..I was so absolutely shocked that I looked at her and said……….”seriously?”

 

7. What is the most annoying thing to you about living with a chronic illness?

That it exists!

 

8. If you were able to have three wishes what would they be and why?

#1  Cure all ailments in the world – everyone would be healthy!

#2  Clean, pure drinking water everywhere on Earth – water is the source of life

#3 Peace throughout the world – let your imagination run wild of what could be accomplished

 

9. What is one activity in life that you loved doing, and have had to now give up due to your chronic illness? And do you feel any resentment?

Riding horses…………for years I couldn’t even look at a horse without getting tears in my eyes.

 

10. What blog have you enjoyed writing the most and why?

The ones I have enjoyed writing the most, and there have been several, are the ones that just flow from my mind to my hands.  Writing has always been a difficult process for me and one I really have to work at.  But if I have to choose one it would be the dock because as I wrote it I felt every single word, an amazing experience.

 

11. What is the most ridiculous comment that you have ever received on social media or as a comment on your blog?

Since I have no social media other than this blog, I have been blessed to receive only one, weird, not having anything to do with the blog comment.  I am very thankful.

 

My  Questions:

  1.  What is your favorite thing about blogging awards?
  2.   If you were a sports car which one would you want to be and why?
  3.   If you could only eat one color of food for a week, what color would it be?
  4.   What is your favorite movie line and why?
  5.   If you had to leave your house and take only 10 things with you (excluding all living beings) what would they be?
  6.   Describe yourself in two words.
  7.   What is one sporting activity that you enjoy watching?
  8.   If you could give one piece of advice for all the world to hear what would it be?
  9.   What is your favorite encouraging quote?
  10.   If you had to learn a made up language, which one would you choose and why?
  11.   If you were to learn to play an instrument which one would you choose?

 

My Nominees:

Altucher Confidential

James A. Best

gaillovesgod

momlifewithchiari

The Godly Chic Diaries

Pam Grout

The Panama Adventure

Brenda Mueller

Trying to Break the Stigma

Chronic Pain with a Higher Perspective

MCTD Warrior’s Blog