lonely road

 

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no one can truly understand the pain and discomfort of  living

to understand the masks put on every day, to live within the confines of  this society, not to be viewed as worthless, useless, in a culture that wants fast paced living, quick movements, immediate answers, a fountain of youth, boundless energy, radiating health………..

we struggle to even maneuver down this path……….it is twisting, turning sharply with multiple bumps in the road

it’s a lonely road we roam…………..the desperation, the clinging onto hope, the desire to feel normal……………it is astounding thoughts of healing we try to keep alive – pushed to the back of our minds so not to be overwhelmed with the thoughts of what might be.

the road is endless and uncharted.  it is an intimidating place to ramble as the fog covers the path – your view is obscured…………you have no ability to see where you are going.

it’s like taking a trip, to an unknown place without any clue to where you are going or how you are going to get there…………..not a path I would have chosen to take, but one I am on nonetheless.

will you leave me?

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i can’t keep up with you……………

…………do you secretly want to leave me?

i anxiously worry about the future……………………what if i don’t heal

…………will you dream about leaving me?

what if i get worse………….and i can no longer leave the house?

………..will you pray about leaving me?

what if i require even more of your time and energy………………..

……….will you desire to leave me?

what if i can no longer walk by your side…………………

……………will you hope to live a life free of me?

what if you become bored and she can do more………….

………….will you plan to leave me?

i am so thankful you have stayed this long…………..is it selfish to ask for more?

who wants to be tied down when you are physically able and free to go………………….

……………do you want to leave me?

………….what if?

What are you binge watching?

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Those of us with CI tend to spend a lot of time with media including TV, Netflix, YouTube, Amazon Prime, audio-books, books, radio, DVDs, CDs and playaways.   Recently I started writing down all of the shows that I have binged watched over the years due to the vast amounts of time I have spent in bed.  I have to admit it made me sad as very little of the binge watching was by choice.  I would much rather have been outside hiking or playing ball with my kiddos but unfortunately there have been way too many bad days/weeks to engage in the activities of my choosing.

Below is a list of each show I have binge watched from beginning to end, in no particular order.  After each show, I listed in which form it was watched and then in parenthesis I included if it is currently available in another form.

I do want to put in my 2 cents worth here; I believe that purchasing a NETFLIX account has been a huge blessing for me, no late DVD return fees and it is available 24/7 for those nights you just can’t sleep, not to mention it can be watched on multiple devices.

We also have an Amazon Prime membership as many of the supplements that I take are cheaper to purchase through them and the items are delivered right to my door.  Their video and music streaming are additional awesome prime membership benefits.

Many of the shows  listed below were watched on DVD.  The majority of the DVDs were checked out from my local library and a few were gifts.

So, here we go in no particular order:

The Office – DVD (Netflix)

The Walking Dead – Netflix

Sneaky Pete – Amazon Prime

The Man in the High Castle – Amazon Prime

The Waltons – DVD (Amazon Prime)

When Calls the Heart – Netflix

Stranger Things – Netflix

Downton Abbey – PBS (Amazon Prime)

Poldark – PBS (Amazon Prime)

As Time Goes By – DVD

Good Neighbors (The Good Life) – DVD

Home Fires – Amazon Prime

Pride and Prejudice – DVD (Amazon Prime)

Emma – DVD (Amazon Prime)

Lark Rise to Candleford – DVD (Amazon Prime)

Butterflies BBC – DVD

Rosemary & Thyme BBC – DVD

Behaving Badly BBC – DVD

A Fine Romance BBC – DVD

Homicide Life on the Street – DVD

Cranford – DVD (Amazon Prime)

The Middle – DVD and ABC.go.com

Everybody Hates Chris – DVD

To The Manor Born – DVD

Breaking Bad – DVD (Netflix)

Better Call Saul – DVD and Netflix

Sense and Sensibility – DVD

Frazier – DVD (Netflix)

Speechless – ABC.go.com

Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt – Netflix

Cheers – Netflix

Speechless – ABC.go.com

My Family BBC – DVD

Keeping Up Appearances BBC – DVD

Jack Ryan – Amazon Prime

 

So…………what are you binge watching?  (There will be no judging!)

………..Until next time, YOU are a superhero…….even from the comfort of your bed or sofa!