to live our very best lives

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This post is going to be different then what I have been posting recently, which has been my attempt at writing poetry.  I have enjoyed putting the words on the screen and deeply appreciate all the kind comments, deserved or not 🙂  so thank YOU!

This week I have been really struggling to come up with something to write.  This struggle caused me to reflect on why I started this blog in the first place.  My main purpose was to help others, who like myself, live with dreaded chronic illnesses.  When I began writing almost 2 years ago, I was so gung-ho, but the more I blogged and the more blogs I read, I became extremely intimiated by the high quality of writing and the vast amount of knowledge that so many others had, that I shyed away from my original intent.

So I decided that, at least for the near future, I will be asking those who grace me with your presence, to answer a different question each week, with each one relating to living our best life while chronically ill.

First, let me give Kim over at  I Tripped Over a Stone a HUGE shout out as she has inspired me to start asking questions.  Every week this amazingly beautiful soul asks her readers questions and the enjoyment I have received from answering and reading others responses has been surprising.  I encourage those of you who have not visited her site to please do so, thank you.

I realize that all of us suffer from different illnesses, affecting us in different ways.  But over the last 21 months I have come to realize that we share a lot more in common than not and we have so much to learn from each other.

So, without further ado, here is the first question:  How do you handle your very bad days?

For me, this is a tough one.  I have 4 kiddos at home and our situation is unique and one that I do not talk about as to protect the identity of my children.  But, even on my really bad days, more than likely I have to get out of bed.  So, I will drink some extra water, maybe be get into a hot shower, put on some loose comfortable clothing, try to drink a smoothie and take my supplements, and then pray for the best.  If I don’t have to get out of bed, I don’t, and I put on a movie, listen to an audiobook, YouTube, anything that does not require reading.

So, how about you guys?  How do you handle your bad days?  The more suggestions the better, you just never know who you may help.

 

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fear

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fear

seeps into your mind like an early morning fog,

slowly expanding into all the open trenches

unfilled spaces

finding places in the mind you didn’t know existed

enlarging to leave no room for productive thoughts

protecting its position like a vicious dog guarding it’s home

settling in like the dust in the carpet

seemingly unnoticed and determined to anchor down for the long haul

 

I am ready to clean house

sweeping it out, not under the rug

searching for all the hiding places

wanting to turn this into a childhood game i no longer want to play

i will find you

searching, one-by-one, the hidden rooms of my mind,

evicting the fear and pain

refilling the room with light and love and hope

 

slamming the door shut with a vengence

securing the deadbolt and allowing the love to expand to fill each and every room.

 

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don’t give up

 

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when the world seems stacked against you

and the wind is refusing to be at your back

 

lights appear to dim as you walk into a room

flowers wilt and die before your tired eyes

and those who are suppose to love you never seemed to care

 

these moments in life can overtake us

creating a sense of feeling unworthy, useless, spent

 

but you are so very beautiful and you are loved,

if not by those who fail to see your inherent worth,

 

remember you are cherished by the one who created you

and the beauty of life will reveal itself to you as

 

a new day will dawn

the fog will clear

and clouds will part

the rain will halt

the sun will shine

birds will sing

and flowers will bloom

 

 

 

you are worthy

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YOU my dear are worthy of love

YOU were chosen to be here

hand picked to be on this Earth

there is only one YOU

only one

never before and never will there be another person as special as YOU

today, i celebrate your uniqueness, the qualities that make you special

YOU deserve respect

YOU are not alone

YOU are loved

 

thank YOU for being YOU

 

flicker

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pitch darkness is a space where you are forced to discover what you are truly made of and how you were created

veils fall off those who surround you, and their souls reveil as they truly are

terror strikes in isolating darkness,  not knowing what or who is around the next corner,  taking each step with a movement of faith, yet questioning where your faith lies

only in true darkness can you see flickers of light, from yourself, or from others in your life

allow that flickering of light, no matter how weak, illuminate your path

you were not meant for the dark, yet only by trudging through the darkness can you truly appreciate the light.

pebbles

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my thoughts are pebbles

bouncing around in my mind

keeping them afloat

 

……..wishing you a day that your thoughts remain positive

 

 

~ wendi is the author or two books, you can view them here.

 

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get out of my head

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i don’t want you here, living inside my head

questioning every decision,

every move I make,

putting useless worry into my mind,

creating chaos that cannot be calmed with relaxation or meditation

you want to destroy me

make me feel as if I cannot get better,  heal,  or live a happy life

 

i want to be lifted up

encouraged,

experience true peace,

 

so find a new place to reside

 

i am kicking you out

for good

 

wendi is the author of two books, you can view them here.

 

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shadows

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without shadows from the past

a future could not become so radiant

 

without true darkness

stars could not shine so magically

 

 

~ wendi is the author of two books, you can view them here.

 

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music within

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i silently sit,  listening to each beat of the music

 

i close my eyes and allow my soul to soak in each note

 

i absorb the sounds and rhythms

 

they bring harmony to my soul

 

and heal me from within

 

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~ wendi, under the pen name Charlie, is the author of Frugal Seeds: 501 Ways to Make, Save or Stretch a Dollar.  

frugal seeds

 

 

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The title of my blog gives away the fact that I live with at least one chronic illness.  Now, I don’t want to brag, but I actually live with several, and as interesting as it sounds, it is not a whole lot of fun.  Unfortunately I am not the only one in my family who lives with such a burden.  Every person in my immediate family lives with at least one chronic illness.

As a result of all of our medical bills, we have learned to live on a tight budget.  Over the years I have had to learn to be frugal and about 6 months ago I decided to put some of  my frugal ways into a book,  Frugal Seeds: 501 Ways to Make, Save or Stretch a Dollar.  It is now available in both paperback and e-book on Amazon.  The entire book can be read for FREE with an Amazon Kindle Unlimited membership.

You will notice it is written under a pen name.  This has been done as I working on additional books and I am determined to keep the lives of my children private.  Thank you for understanding.