January 1st, 2018 I decided to make a resolution not to watch any TV news. I made this resolution half joking, saying it mainly out of frustration of all the depressing stories I heard day after day. What I discovered after a few weeks was that I felt a bit better. My anxiety dropped and I spent less time watching TV. It was a wonderful experience/experiment and one I plan to carry on in 2019 as part of my……..do more of good and and less of the bad activities.
Wishing you a year of more good stuff in your life!
in my mind i am running free, like the wild horses, across the land without a care in the world
in my mind my body is capable, and I can freely go wherever it will take me
in my mind, my spirit is strong and independent just like the horses that run free
wild horses running free…..to move with such power and grace…..
…….in my mind…….
I am searching a dense forest,
no sunlight can reach me,
its vastness surrounds me and I cannot find my way,
I whisper his name…..
and all I can hear is my own voice calling back to me…..saying
……..where are you?
moving through life at a slower pace does not make you less important……
it is giving you the chance to see the small, beautiful details in life that so many people miss
music makes the past seem real,
the future look brighter,
and the present appear less hopeless……
…don’t let the fear of the future rob you of this moment’s peace……
there are days i want to run…….run so fast that my illnesses can’t keep up.
i will keep running until i can no longer feel them nipping at my heels, stalking me, tormenting me…….
trying to catch up and derail my goals, my dreams, my future
i will keep running until i am completely out of breath and i am so far out ahead that i can hide myself from the beasts and watch them move past me……….
i will turn around and joyfully limp back to my life………
a chronic illness is like a tornado………..it starts with little warning………the right conditions merging together to create a destructive force
it can create mass devastation to everyone and everything in it’s path with no regard to human suffering
it creates mass casualties
it destroys lives in a matter of moments
sends dreams flying through the air with no safe place to land
it brings people to their knees, crying………”I lost so much”
lives must be rebuilt
and maybe, just maybe, we will be able to rebuild a good life again, complete with blue skies and sunshine
i feel safe from the world
i feel safe from my fears
this safety allows me to stop my tears
i hate feeling scared of what might be
but i am thankful that you are here to calm me
to whisper to me that it will all be ok
that you will, through it all, with me, will stay
fresh and newly picked, beautifully simple, exquisitely delicate
it slowly opens
growing lovelier with layers and layers of petals, showing more of it’s inner beauty, its complexity
in abundant bloom the rose is in it’s glory, filled with beauty, full of life……..showing the world all it has to offer………..
the day comes when the rose begins to droop, petals wither, brown and begin to fall, the stem starts to wilt………beauty fades………and………it begins to die slowly
just like love……….it begins fresh, new, breathtaking ………….but does it have to succumb to decay?