lonely road

 

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no one can truly understand the pain and discomfort of  living

to understand the masks put on every day, to live within the confines of  this society, not to be viewed as worthless, useless, in a culture that wants fast paced living, quick movements, immediate answers, a fountain of youth, boundless energy, radiating health………..

we struggle to even maneuver down this path……….it is twisting, turning sharply with multiple bumps in the road

it’s a lonely road we roam…………..the desperation, the clinging onto hope, the desire to feel normal……………it is astounding thoughts of healing we try to keep alive – pushed to the back of our minds so not to be overwhelmed with the thoughts of what might be.

the road is endless and uncharted.  it is an intimidating place to ramble as the fog covers the path – your view is obscured…………you have no ability to see where you are going.

it’s like taking a trip, to an unknown place without any clue to where you are going or how you are going to get there…………..not a path I would have chosen to take, but one I am on nonetheless.

pain

adult alone anxious black and white

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in those deep and dark moments of physical and emotional pain you search your soul for strength………….

and in those moments you pray for guidance, for relief – that if there is a lesson to be learned………….to please reveal it in a clear and gentle way………….

maybe it is in these moments when we really learn how strong we are, or maybe it is how weak………..

that we can get through this on our own…………….or that we need others

we are mentally strong enough to tackle it head on……………..or how close we are  completely losing it………….

it is in these moments we realize just how fragile we are………..how we walk a pencil thin line everyday………….between making it and breaking down………….

Blogger Recognition Award

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First I want to start off by thanking Something To Stu Over .  He is a nice guy who discusses tough subjects with grace and encourages others in their walk with God, no matter where they may be on their path.

Here are the rules:

  • Write a post to show your award.
  • Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  • Give a brief story of how your blog started.
  • Give two pieces of advice for new bloggers.
  • Nominate 6-12 bloggers who you believe deserve to be recognized. Comment on their blogs, to let the nominees know they have been nominated.

 

How I started my blog:

Great question……..It is something I have wanted to do for years, but I had no confidence to do it.  I mean who in their right mind would give two hoots to read anything I had to write,  as I have never been any good at writing.  In fact, I had a high school English professor who told me that I would be “nothing more than a chicken farmer” because my writing was so bad.  Well, little did he know that I took that statement as a compliment!

But, with the encouragement of my family (especially my husband) and allowing even more time to pass, I finally made it my New Year’s Resolution to start the blog in January of this year.  It started very awkwardly, but I started it nonetheless!  I really wasn’t sure what was going to come out of this blog, but I was hoping that I could help and/or encourage just one chronically ill person, what better goal could there be?

 

Advice for fellow bloggers:

I have very simple advice…….

  1.  Be true to yourself…….don’t follow trends, pay attention to the number of followers or likes, instead write what makes you happy and the rest will follow.
  2.  Take time to really connect with fellow bloggers, they will provide you with precious gifts of knowledge, encouragement, and fellowship.

 

My nominees:  I picked 7 since Stu, who nominated me, picked seven.  If you choose to take on this award, great, if not, please know that I thought of you!

Miraculous Smile

Cordelia’sMomStill

Invisibly Me

Living with Lupus

Love Through Blog

LifeTastesBetterOnABudget

Crafts, Chronic Illness and Adulting

 

 

3 days – 3 quotes nomination – Day #2

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I would like to sincerely thank momlifewithchiari for nominating me.  Please check out her blog where she graciously and bravely lives with a chronic illness and offers encouragement to others so beautifully.  She has been a huge encouragement for  me and I appreciate her!

 

“Whether we’re a preschooler or a young teen, a graduating college senior or a retired person, we human beings all want to know that we’re acceptable, that our being alive somehow makes a difference in the lives of others.”
― Fred RogersThe World According to Mister Rogers: Important Things to Remember

 

Isn’t this so true……….no matter who we are, where we live, what our age………..we all want to feel as if we matter and that inhabiting this planet makes a positive impact on others’ lives.  I think this is even more important for those of us who live with challenges………we feel broken, damaged, less than, unable to live “up” to the world’s artificial standard of useful…………

Mr. Rogers had it ABSOLUTELY right, he knew everyone mattered, no matter who they were……………so today, make sure you let those in your life who are important to you know that they matter and you are glad to be sharing your life’s journey with them!  You have no idea how telling someone they are important to you could change a person’s day………month………… or future.

Now go………

“Be the change that you wish to see in the world.”

― Mahatma Gandhi

will you leave me?

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i can’t keep up with you……………

…………do you secretly want to leave me?

i anxiously worry about the future……………………what if i don’t heal

…………will you dream about leaving me?

what if i get worse………….and i can no longer leave the house?

………..will you pray about leaving me?

what if i require even more of your time and energy………………..

……….will you desire to leave me?

what if i can no longer walk by your side…………………

……………will you hope to live a life free of me?

what if you become bored and she can do more………….

………….will you plan to leave me?

i am so thankful you have stayed this long…………..is it selfish to ask for more?

who wants to be tied down when you are physically able and free to go………………….

……………do you want to leave me?

………….what if?

fire

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i needed the fire to provide warmth, safety from the dark, desolate night.

i sat alone, afraid of the dark, afraid of what i could not see………

i heard sounds of creatures that may be lurking in the dark shadows to hurt me

i needed to rest, but i was too fearful………..

as the fire began to die and the sun began to rise, i looked around and found

i was not alone….

i was never alone………..but i was too afraid to take my eyes off the flames………..to recognize the sounds were human not beast.  i was never in danger……..he was always there, i just wouldn’t see.