no tv news

night television tv video

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January 1st, 2018 I decided to make a resolution not to watch any TV news.  I made this resolution half joking, saying it mainly out of frustration of all the depressing stories I heard day after day.  What I discovered after a few weeks was that I felt a bit better.  My anxiety dropped and I spent less time watching TV.   It was a wonderful experience/experiment and one I plan to carry on in 2019 as part of my……..do more of good and and less of the bad activities.

Wishing you a year of more good stuff in your life!

wild horses

nature animal fog freedom

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in my mind i am running free, like the wild horses, across the land without a care in the world

 

in my mind my body is capable, and I can freely go wherever it will take me

 

in my mind, my spirit is strong and independent just like the horses that run free

 

wild horses running free…..to move with such power and grace…..

 

…….in my mind…….

 

forest

bright countryside dawn daylight

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I am searching a dense forest,

no sunlight can reach me,

its vastness surrounds me and I cannot find my way,

I whisper his name…..

and all I can hear is my own voice calling back to me…..saying

……..where are you?

slower

autumn autumn leaves branches danger

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moving through life at a slower pace does not make you less important……

instead…..

it is giving you the chance to see the small, beautiful details in life that so many people miss

can I run fast enough?

person running in the hallway

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there are days i want to run…….run so fast that my illnesses can’t keep up.

 

i will keep running until i can no longer feel them nipping at my heels, stalking me, tormenting me…….

 

trying to catch up and derail my goals, my dreams, my future

 

i will keep running until i am completely out of breath and i am so far out ahead that i can hide myself  from the beasts and watch them move past me……….

 

i will turn around and joyfully limp back to my life………

 

tornado

tornado on body of water during golden hour

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a chronic illness is like a tornado………..it starts with little warning………the right conditions merging together to create a destructive force

it can create mass devastation to everyone and everything in it’s path with no regard to human suffering

it creates mass casualties

it destroys lives in a matter of moments

sends dreams flying through the air with no safe place to land

 

it brings people to their knees, crying………”I lost so much”

lives must be rebuilt

and maybe, just maybe, we will be able to rebuild a good life again, complete with blue skies and sunshine

in your arms

 

person spreading hands against sun

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i feel safe from the world

i feel safe from my fears

this safety allows me to stop my tears

 

i hate feeling scared of what might be

but i am thankful that you are here to calm me

to whisper to me that it will all be ok

that you will, through it all, with me, will stay

the rose

flower rose nature plant

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fresh and newly picked, beautifully simple, exquisitely delicate

it slowly opens

growing lovelier with layers and layers of petals, showing more of it’s inner beauty, its complexity

in abundant bloom the rose is in it’s glory, filled with beauty, full of life……..showing the world all it has to offer………..

the day comes when the rose begins to droop, petals wither, brown and begin to fall, the stem starts to wilt………beauty fades………and………it begins to die slowly

just like love……….it begins fresh, new, breathtaking ………….but does it have to succumb to decay?