Tears

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There are days that I just can not pretend to be ok for one more second.  The pain. The fog.  The fear.  The unknown.  It gets the best of me, despite how hard I try to ignore it.  It is in these moments that I fall apart.

I cry a personal brook, weeping myself into moments of inconsolable sadness.  As I try to pull myself out of the despair, I think about all the people who have it worse, who are in their own part of the world crying their own personal stream………babbling to themselves that no one understands.

I visualize the tears of those who cry out for help………turning into streams………the streams all meeting up forming an ocean of tears…..

These tears are not seen by many, only those who live within the ocean, on an island of illness………..it is only when the winds pick up and the ocean gains strength enough to cry out do we really see the others who live here too.

But here in the ocean of tears, you find an abundance of life, completely different than what you would find on land –  but beautiful just the same.

 

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books

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adventure in hand

thrown into another world

true blessed escape

 

 

wendi, under the pen name Charlie Lee Austin, is the author of Frugal Seeds 501 Ways to Make, Save or Stretch a Dollar.  You can read it for free with Kindle Unlimited through Amazon.

love

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love

when you have nothing to prove,

nothing left to give,

nothing left to receive,

……and you still remain peacefully and joyfully steadfast.

 

~ wendi, under the pen name Charlie, is the author of  Frugal Seeds: 501 Ways to Make, Save, or Stretch a Dollar

graveyard

 

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My graveyard of regrets overflows with markers

The place I would go to bury my unfulfilled hope and dreams

They lie entombed, not as a result of lack of effort or desire

But due to circumstances beyond my control

 

I don’t like to visit this dreadful space – yet it remains outside my front door

So I have made a plan to transform this place

Planting colorful flowers on each grave

With a prayer that each unfulfilled wish

Will create a place much more beautiful than before.

 

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~ wendi, under the pen name Charlie, is the author of Frugal Seeds: 501 Ways to Make, Save, or Stretch a Dollar

 

a thank you to YOU!

 

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Sending a sincere and loving THANK YOU to all of you out there who make this world a better place.  I read your achievements daily……helping others through your encouraging words, beautiful and creative writings, beneficial information and prayers.

YOU are what makes this world so special and I am honored to be a very small part of it.

May God bless each of you with a peaceful Christmas season and a joyous New Year.

Until 2019,

wendi

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so blessed to have you

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You were there from the beginning.  I didn’t see it, but you were there.  Waiting for me to notice………..to open my eyes to the gift that I was being given.  I wasn’t aware it was a gift for me…………one to have and to hold,  in sickness and in health.

I was scared of the gift……….maybe it wasn’t the right time to accept, maybe it wouldn’t last, maybe it was just wrong.

But you held on to the gift………..waiting for a time that I was ready to accept.

As the veil was lifted from my eyes……….I saw you, really saw you for the first time.  You were my gift from God, a treasure beyond my wildest dreams.

Thank you for waiting………..thank you for being…………

 

 

kitchen distraction

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……..and it is not something I use to make cooking quicker; it does not spiral, chop or mix, nor is it something that actually sits on the counter. Instead, it is securely fastened to the underside of one of my kitchen cabinets, the one closest to my sink.

So what is it you wonder and how could it help make my life in the kitchen easier?  My favorite kitchen appliance is actually a combination radio/DVD/CD player.  It was something my parents had in their basement and when it was offered to me, I jumped at the opportunity to own such an amazing invention.

Since it was gifted to me, it has been my constant companion.  Whether I am cooking or cleaning it allows my mind it focus on something other than the tiredness and aching I feel in my body.  This allows me to work longer in the kitchen accomplishing more every time I am in there. So, not only am I able to physically stay in the kitchen longer, I am also enjoying an audio-book or a movie that makes me happy, or music that lifts me up.  I am so thankful I have something that is such a blessed distraction.

Here’s to things that make our lives just a little bit easier!