visiting the past

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Photo by James Wheeler on Pexels.comRevisiting the past, I find decrepit halls I should not wander.

My body instinctively pulls away, while my brain shoves me further over the stones.

The fear and sadness, as if I was a moth drawn to the light from the fires raging in hell

I lunge head first into the abyss knowing damn well once I slip, the climb out is endless

Have I not been tortured enough…..

I have I not payed enough for my sins, or worse yet, theirs…..

As I break these chains, one link at a time, may the light I see be that of peace and not pain, love not hate, safety and not fear.

And may I walk those haunted halls from one of freedom and not bondage.

53 thoughts on “visiting the past

  1. Thank you for sharing!!… โ€œGetting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.โ€ (C.S. Lewis )… ๐Ÿ™‚

    Hope all is well in your part of the universe and all your tomorrows are filled with love and happiness!!.. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. Sometimes, shadows of the past , and the present seem to be colluding. Lingering thoughts, and what becomes such a nagging feeling. Looking for the right moment, when the heart seems most vulnerable. Some days, you can fight the feeling; but what youโ€™ve already been through, moments already fought. But they canโ€™t put you back in chains. Freedom come, with a soul no longer in bondage; to what will be, another test for your heart! Godโ€™s strength, and peace!

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  3. Those corridors full of shadows are often the longest to travel through. The biggest shadow is in recognising and releasing guilt… And those who have pushed ‘Their’ guilt upon your shoulders..
    And once that lock us unpicked, those chains will fall away…

    Beautifully written, and those past chains have no place to keeping us prisoners in the present..
    Sending Huge hugs, and know your courage has already cleared many such corridors…. The final ones are always the hardest… โค โค โค

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    • Thank you so very much Sue for such a helpful and loving response…….You are absolutely right, there is so much guilt that I have held onto when I should not feel guilt at all. And learning how to release such feelings is a process that I am still working on, but I have come so far in the last few years thanks to your helpful guidance……and for this, I am eternally grateful!

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      • Aww.. that dear Wendi is so kind of you to say… But you dear friend are the one doing the self shadow work.. Releasing, letting go…
        See yourself as a Tree right now… Falling leaves… Each one of those emotions, guilt, lack of self worth, fear, sorrow, anger, all of those inbuilt emotions often we do not even realise are hanging there… See each one as a leaf…. Allow it to drop to the ground.. Be blown away by the spiritual wind of empowering yourself as you the tree, see your roots go ever deeper into Mother Earth, anchoring yourself to her love, your inner beauty and your true self worth…
        Know you are loved.. Know you are a Sovereign being of Internal Light, who has come to cast away the last remnants of All Past shadows which have clung to your being throughout many life times..
        This is the life time to let all go…. And come Spring dear Wendi… you will see your bright new green shoots bursting forth in health and vitality… See this in your mind.. Feel it in your heart and Know it will come to pass…
        You are not alone… and you are loved…
        Stay blessed.. because you are.. โค โค โค

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