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seeps into your mind like an early morning fog,

slowly expanding into all the open trenches

unfilled spaces

finding places in the mind you didn’t know existed

enlarging to leave no room for productive thoughts

protecting its position like a vicious dog guarding it’s home

settling in like the dust in the carpet

seemingly unnoticed and determined to anchor down for the long haul


I am ready to clean house

sweeping it out, not under the rug

searching for all the hiding places

wanting to turn this into a childhood game i no longer want to play

i will find you

searching, one-by-one, the hidden rooms of my mind,

evicting the fear and pain

refilling the room with light and love and hope


slamming the door shut with a vengence

securing the deadbolt and allowing the love to expand to fill each and every room.


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110 thoughts on “fear

  1. Courageous words dear lady, from someone who has reacted for the last time. Your heart is battered and bruised, your mind had enough of your ego trying to dance 4,000 tunes.
    And as tired as you are from this, inside you have reached a place that says ‘no more’.
    Your not even sure how to approach this because you have looked and looked to break it free. But believe me, it is there. Those fears we are trying to throw out can only be disconnected and disempowered in one way. God made them that way so that we would find the one thing our hearts have always yearned for…that happiness of unconditional love. Not a fear or condition to be seen, only a smile, a real one. One no longer being dragged kicking and screaming in all that we do.
    It is to just understand ‘why’ we react to those fears as we do, see how they appear in so many of our relationships where we keep pointing our finger at the ‘other’ when in reality it is our reaction to what they do. They we have attracted so that we will be prodded, will react, will feel that pain. For without it we will not understand the journey we have made, to finally appreciate and love the beauty that is waiting inside us all. After enduring such pain for so long, when that understanding of that fear finally appears, we will almost be in shock for what we finally see. Something so simple, but so profound that it will forever change us. And set us free.
    You have reached that light, that time of turning to face it and not flee. In there is a love like no other dear lady and it will bring you to tears, not painful one’s but one’s of joy ❀️
    Keep believing, keep faith and hope…but most of all, keep going. It is there awaiting your arrival ❀️

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    • My utmost apologies, I was so focused on my reply that I forgot to say…’so beautifully written, the words of a fighter, a fighter of love’ ❀️
      The light is there dear lady, and you have turned to face it ❀️


      • oh my goodness, please don’t apologize after leaving such an awesome response! πŸ™‚ thank you for your generous words……..and I am glad you could feel the fighting spirit that I have πŸ™‚

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    • God bless you Mark for leaving such an amazing response. I have read and re-read your response several times and allowing all your words and wisdom to soak in. I deeply appreciate you kindness, thoughts and wisdom. πŸ™‚

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  2. Yes! This is like Matthew 12.43-45 “When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places, seeking rest, and findeth none. Then he saith, I will return into my house from whence I came out; and when he is come, he findeth it empty, swept, and garnished. Then goeth he, and taketh with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last state of that man is worse than the first. Even so shall it be also unto this wicked generation.”
    When the fear is swept out, we must fill it with the light and power of God’s Word.

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  3. Wendi,
    I’ve been browsing through your posts lately, and have come to understand that your challenges have not only been faced and understood by you, but even when you acknowledge the difficulties they continue to present you, it’s clear that you are more than able to rise to those challenges, and your poetic and spiritual sharing of your heartfelt thoughts is a gift to your readers who may be facing similar circumstances. Your generosity of spirit and creative skill in expressing both the difficulties and your solutions or responses inspire us and lift us in ways that make your work here so important.

    Thank you so much for keeping us in the loop of beneficial advice and soothing solutions!

    Kind regards….John H.

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    • John! it is so good to hear from you! for some reason you dropped off my follow list and I couldn’t find your blog so I am thrilled to see you here and I have followed you again!
      You always have such amazingly kind and encouraging words to leave and for this I am deeply grateful.
      To think that anything I do here is remotely “important” is humbling beyond words.
      Thank you again John…….I am so thankful for you taking the time to read my posts with your heart and leave such soul uplifting words………Bless you.


  4. It is the saying of NO! in the face of fear that is itself so courageous. The effect ripples out into a world that needs desperately to find positive aggression in the name of Love. I salute you for your integrity and for tirelessly doing your part. Blessings.

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  5. Oh, Wendi, this one put tears in my eyes. I’m covered in goosebumps. I am SO proud of you! Saying no to fear is a HUGE step in healing. I’ve been dealing with “old” ghosts myself and I know so help me I know!, how hard it is for you to let go of those talons that just don’t want to let go. BIG HUGS!!!! Stay strong! And as you do, you shall reap the benefits! xo

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  6. I love the imagery with this, is so powerful to imagine fear as a think you can evict from the spaces in your mind, in your heart, and to replace it with something that blooms and blossoms and fills you with joy. Beautifully written xx

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  7. The sweeping clear and finding those hidden cobwebs of the mind is an ongoing process.. And sometimes you will find one hidden in the most unexpected place..
    What I love about you Wendi is that you are digging them out, as you inwardly search out those childhood demons that have created today’s nightmares..
    I am willing you on my friend..
    Such a beautiful composition of thought… And I know the effort it takes.. But I see you winning this battle my friend, I really do…
    Keep dusting my friend ❀

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