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i can’t keep up with you……………
…………do you secretly want to leave me?
i anxiously worry about the future……………………what if i don’t heal
…………will you dream about leaving me?
what if i get worse………….and i can no longer leave the house?
………..will you pray about leaving me?
what if i require even more of your time and energy………………..
……….will you desire to leave me?
what if i can no longer walk by your side…………………
……………will you hope to live a life free of me?
what if you become bored and she can do more………….
………….will you plan to leave me?
i am so thankful you have stayed this long…………..is it selfish to ask for more?
who wants to be tied down when you are physically able and free to go………………….
……………do you want to leave me?
………….what if?
Very real for all of us. Beautifully and simply said.
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Heart wrenching
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yes………………it really is………..thank you for taking the time to comment Steve.
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I’m lucky in that I never had to worry about this, but I am not so naive to think that it isn’t an issue. I don’t know if you saw the blog piece I wrote on the subject, but if you didn’t, go into the archives and look for a piece called Relarionships
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No, I have not read it, but now I am going to be sure to check your relationship post out. My husband tells me I have nothing to worry about, but being chronically ill and seeing how it affects me as a partner makes me wonder……..thank you again for commenting and letting me know about your post!
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This is exactly what my anxiety and depression tell me daily. Keep fighting, keep your head up and keep moving forward – on foot in front of the other. 🧡
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Amen, sister! Being chronically ill it causes me to wonder what the future could hold in every aspect. Thank you SO much for all of your encouragement!
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I’ve nominated you … 🙂
https://momlifewithchiari.com/2018/05/28/liebster-award-get-to-know-me/
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Wow! thank you so much. so kind and very generous of you!
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Of course! 😊🧡
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This is so heart wrenching. I feel it. And I do hope the Illness will fade and love will conquer
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wow………..thank you so much for your comment
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My pleasure.
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you always write such beautiful words……….no matter how few
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Thank you so much Wendi. Appreciate your kind words. You need to have beauty in you to see beauty in others 💛
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This was so very powerful and full of emotions. I can honestly understand the feelings you have. It isn’t always or ever easy living with a chronic illness and I think many people fear it will be too much for our partners, but they should be there for us NO matter what! If I am being 100% honest, when I was first diagnosed 18 years ago I was married and to the wrong man. Apparently he could not handle things when I was only first diagnosed and found himself a girlfriend. The truth is, he did me a favor because I knew he was not the right person and life is better without him. My husband now, we have been together 14 years and he would never leave me because of my illness and I believe that! I wish you lots of love sweetie!!!
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Ok…..my computer is acting up and I am not sure if any of response was previously sent. But having CI all my life has been difficult but it wasn’t until it really took a hold, after I was married, did it also bring on anxiety……the fear of being a burden, not being good enough, worth staying with. I am lucky that my husband has been very good to me and been by my side. This writing was written out of anxiety and fear, something I hope to get a handle on.
Thank you SO MUCH for your super kind and caring response. YOU are an amazing person……….
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Powerful piece! Blessings to you!
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thank you so very much!
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