my thoughts on chronic illness

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My life feels like a glass vase slipping out of my hands and watching it shatter in hundreds of pieces……………..in slow motion.

I look at the pieces, lying scattered all over the cold, hard floor and wonder, where do I start?  Is it even possible to put the pieces back together?

 

So what is a person to do?

You get tired of appointments, tests, the stress of paying for “treatments” that you know may not work or worse yet, make things worse.  Searching for a medical professional that understands you as an individual and yet can see the whole picture is beyond frustrating.  Trying to find someone who can handle multiple chronic illnesses is nearly impossible.

You feel as if you are hiking through a deep, dense, dark, daunting forest with little sunlight streaming through the branches.  You are without a map or compass to guide your way.  You hear voices coming from all directions telling you what to do.  There are too many instructions and the words are so different from each other that there is no consensus, and it all sounds like jumbled nonsense.  Maybe they are all speaking in different languages?

It is now you realize it is really up to you to get out of this scary place.  But you are exhausted both mentally and physically, not sure how much longer you can travel.  You are praying for miracles…………..maybe a woodland fairy shows up to give you a magic healing potion,  or a light beam shines down directly on you from heaven and gives you divine healing, or maybe, just maybe, a phone booth will appear out of nowhere and  you can go inside and turn you into a superhero.

 

Until next time……………YOU are a superhero and superheros are born and gain their powers through tragedy.

8 thoughts on “my thoughts on chronic illness

  1. Searching for help and answers and dealing with numerous appointments is definitely exhausting. You have voiced this so well, I can definitely relate with my own situation with chronic illness. I love this – “YOU are a superhero and superheros are born and gain their powers through tragedy” – so motivating & reassuring to read that! =]
    Caz x

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  2. Oh, I sure can relate to those feelings when it seems every diagnosis and every treatment makes the day even harder! It is so tempting to just give in to the discouragement isn’t it? I am so thankful for encouraging words of those who have walked through this path! And I am so grateful that God is here to help us too! Blessings to you today.

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    • Thank you for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful comment. I agree with you, it is comforting to know that others can understand your pain as they walk the same road. On the other side, it grieves me to know there are so many of us out here, suffering. May you be blessed as you bless others through your blog!

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  3. Your words were so eloquently stated!! I understood every single one. It sounds like the difference is that I have a diagnosis that is understood.
    With that information I can move on in so many ways .
    Do you have a clear diagnosis?

    I’m so sorry you are in so much pain (physically, mentally and emotionally). I wish we could meet to try to have some enjoyment in our angst.

    Wendi 🧚‍♂️ 🤺my thoughts are with you!!!! 💐 🎁 🤗

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